fear

its wed alr, and i have been wasting my week away.
Monday valentines, tues long day and slack my day away and today sleep and study really a lil bit nia.
omgosh, i totally dun have sense of urgency ! D:
dunno why happened, stress or what.
keep emo-ing , especially when it come to night time when im alone.
den cry over seriously stupid and useless stuffs.
i seriously wish this feelings can go off soon.
its ridiculous and killing me.
i know when im like this, i would ruin things again .
im trying to suppress it , to hide it.
well, please please someone take this mixed feelings away from me.
i really want a getaway badly.
time seems to be so lil.
exams is coming and the day baby gonna be enlisted is nearing. D:
perhaps its just a big reason why im feeling all these , again..
the thought of having to go through it all over again is torturing me.
the long weekdays, short weekens, insufficient time tgt, lack of communication ?
okays, im just afraid the same thing might happened again, history might reply itself again.
or maybe its me , the problem just lies with me.
its always me, i dunno whats wrong with myself too . :/
its scary how this feeling gets stronger and deeper each day .
like its beyond control...
the scarier it gets, the more paranoia it gets.
okays conclusion, ivyng just bang wall and die suan . (Y)
LALALA~
well, i have got great friends.(Y)
and honey has been pretty sad lately.
i just wish i could be there for her whenever she needs me .
just feel helpless when shes sad and theres nothing i can do to make her feel better .
but i just want her to be happy.
i dun really like the feeling of seeing my friend sad, especially the ones that are close to me .
i pretty much miss my shishus .
miss how they always dote and treat me like a lil princess.
i just wish i could just go back to secondary school and party in school everyday with the lovelys.
i miss them like hell, the 5NAs.

happy studying and mugging people. (:
jiayous :D
xoxo.














perhaps the past made me who i am today.