ohwell.
didnt realized I haven't been blogging the past few days.
its friday alr.
orhkays thursday night for me.
met my girls this week.
Tuesday night dinnerz and ice cream with rachel, baoyi and xuanny.
catching up and spend some quality time together.
wed night party with C and A at rebel.
and I slept till 6 in the evening.
gosh, my body clock is damm screwed.
supposed to meet my H&M ex colleagues for dinner at town,
yet I fly them plane.
have been watching on call 36 hours this few days.
its a hk drama, I think its quite a naise and meaningful drama.
finished the show alr.
this week is coming to an end soon.
it also mean holiday is ending and intern is starting.
gosh thinking about it sucks...
well will be under PREMA but doing FM services for nation library board.
thinking of my group mate is seriously.... headache.
sighhhh.
have to face the facts anyway.
19 weeks of intern, wish me luck people.
anyway gonna meet my loveliest teammates later.
dinnerz at chomps with my fav people.
likka finally.
sighhhhhhhhh..
school is starting, intern is starting sho will be training ):
I really really don't want to face it.
lost that passion, lost that love, lost that confidence, lost my way, lost my..self.
I don't know how I used to love bball sho much.
I don't know how I used to spend sho much time on it.
I don't know how I used to sacrifice sho much for this.
sho much sweat, tears, hard work, time, commitment and effort on it.
yet I've lost it. lost touch, lost that passion.
have been running away from it for two months alr.
two months for not touching that orange ball, without training.
everything is back to zero.
can I please please not face it?
can time just stop at this moment?
stop at holidays?
I know time don't stop for anyone neither does it turn things around.
gosh, this is bad.
I don't know how life gonna be like when intern starts.
work, training, friends, families and everything else.
suchaaa headache thinking about all theses.
what goes through a guy mind when he starts falling for a girl?
I really don't know how to differentiate between liking someone or just friend's concern.
I really don't want to think about it but I just can't help it.
how to get rid of all those thoughts?
more than friends, less than lovers.
sucks. seriously.
only feeling it here and there.
I really don't like this feeling.
I know I know how he is always there for me.
listening to my rants, caring about how I feel.
but I really don't know what is all these.
perhaps I care too much, think too much.
sorry, but this is me.
been telling myself to be contented with whatever I have.
be contented of my life.
I've been trying too hard.
sometimes I wish I could control my own thoughts and feelings.
sometimes I wish there is a stop, pause and play button in my life.
maybe it's just another emotional night.
tmr will be better.
because it wont rain forever.
goodnights.
goodbye.
XOXO
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