i went out with my shishus and a lil special this time along with my shifu.
seems like we are finally back to what we used to be.
and i guess its a good thing yea?
we went chinatown! they brought me to such aunties and uncles place. *FAINT*
well, its cool anyway .
always town and city areas.
we walked to clark quay cause chinatown got not much thing.
slack and walk ard and back to amk.
came back amk just to have dinner and home sweet home.
i just got home half an hour ago and im going out soon!
for a drink! (: (Y)
just gonna enjoy this Halloween night yea?














time pass quickly please, so i can be heal and get out of your life.

one week of school and i only went 1 day !
all due to sickness and yea funeral.
finally everything is over.
practically not everything but yea more thing is coming.
although its tiring but well they kids there are so adorable and innocent.
although they irritates me at times and thinks that kids are nh but trouble.
well, somehow i still love kids alot !(:
skipped trgs and school isnt a good thing anyway .
guess my jack it got lots to update me (:
the worst thing is skipping trgs.
guess i can just warm the bench on tues and yea not proud or what i never have warm the bench before.
and yea the feelings that i have nao isnt very good and i hate it .
but its okays right? i guess so.
afterall im not that good too and i know it myself.
so i shall stop ranting about it and forget it.
ytd was the last day .
at night went to meet honey(weiling), daddy(Huiling/milk), shishu beng, jacq and qixuan!(:
we catch a movie, it was alright and back home.
i still went to fecth honey before meeting them ! im so sweeet! (:
LALALA!
homesweethome after that !
and my lappy seriously need to be fixed ! it went haywire!
and my phone also ! damm it !
anyway im gonna change back to my nokia phone. damm!
argh !
but nvm! (:
JAN QUICK COME SO I CAN CHANGE PHONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!






























and im gonna stop chasing and thanks for killing me this way .

i gave school a missed today.
i slept at 5am .
was at the wake there.
wakey up feeling super weak.
seems like i gonna fall sick.
backache, cramps headache feeling like jelly .
tired.
guess its just not enough rest .
nvm, its okays.
wakey and went down to the fineral again.
just came up and have some rest .
gonna go down soon.
lalala.
































and i wish i could just lean on you when im feeling so helpless.

first day of school! (:
didnt get sufficient sleep , slept about 3hr only?
wakey got prepared and wakey daddy up!
daddy drove me to school!
YAYNESSS!(:
had a long day !
13 hours in school is not fun at all.
especially with my damm cramps, damm emotions . ):
but yea i survived it through.
and french is super cool! (Y)
kind of like it but know its not gonna be easy anyway .
nvm shall try my best!(:




































and if running away, avoiding was the best solution you could think of, den what more can i say? so be it . im numb alr. enough of crying.

was at the funeral most of the time.
super tired.
and school is reopening tmr.
the though of it alr sianxedd.
i dunno how am i gonna handle everything im dealing with.
but i have to .
whine and rant also no use right? i guess so .
have got to work later .



































one more month , what should i do? just stand and watch?
i dunno.
imy,ily,iny.

i stayed at home almost the whole day .
rot at home, went to see great granny.
hone again, went meet bp .
half way mum called and said she passed away alr.
rush back home.
she's a great warrior fight hundred year on this earth.
she has a good life.
100yr old, and she will be in heaven watching over us.
i will always rmb her, how much she used to love me, dote me when im young.
much loves<3

and yea daniel ong is seriously killing me .

im supposed to have a good day.
bit den something happened ,but thank god its fine (temp) nao.
and yea.
i guess its just a lil too much to ask for.

me had a long and tiring day like seriously.
slept at 4plus in the morning wakey at 8plus.
went to work.
and my phone dies on me!):
sucks to the max i swear! TSK !
trg was kind of tiring too .
didnt eat anything and came back home .
nao im hungry but im super lazy!
argh !sianxedd.
and hell great i on my phone 7msges but none came from you.
fml. ):

YAY!
im back!
went to meet BP (TAY HWEI TENG) brought my lil cousin along .
we slack chill chit chat and dinner.
had a great session with bppp and she lend me a new phone!
im so excited about it you know !
and i put alot of pictures inside! like 300+ pictures! HAHAH!
LALALALALALALALA!
HAHHA! no worries ah teng!
i will take good care of the phone!
and you know you know.
i was waiting the whole day .
yet nothing came.
kind of disappointed but yea expected.
nvm. its okays.
those lil things and the previous replies can still keep me going. (:



















its a lie if i say its okays.

its my offday.
im supposed to meet my sweetheart for movie and lunchy!
but she fly me plane again! as usual! TSK !
so im nua-ing at home and meet bp LATER! :)
yayness! (:
sibei bored naosczx!
im like looking at my bloggs, pictures and just let good memories flash back! :)
and you know its amazing how i just smile at lil things naosczx.
:D

byes people.
xoxo.

yosczx!
bloggy timey !
me LATE for work today cause i overslept!
i forgotten to put alarm!
supposed to work at 11am i wakey at 1040 !
im like jumping out of my bed lah !
but heng nothing happened!(:
work is like zzzz.
with idiots !
im dying to work with my girlfriends):
anyway went TP trg today!
trg was fun and tiring!
many came today.
but im kind of demoralized ):
TP BBALL GIRLS team is seriously becoming a zoo!
we are all animals.
TSK ! and we have got a naggy zoo keeper!(:
HAHAHH!
went dinner with team !
great , first time so many people ehs!
happy only !(:
had a great dinner!(:
and something make me entire day.
3 question marks!
HAHHA !
LALALA!
goodnights!(:

me me me finally OFFDAY TODAY! :)
YAYNESS! :)
went to town with shishu beng, darlink, buddy and lester! :D
pei shishu go buy his bag!
walk from somerset to cine den taka den heeren den somerset den cine again !
ohdear! tired!
had dinner and went to had dessert at my work place cause wanna go visit chiakee!
den walk walk pei kee dinner and homesweethome ! (:
LALALAL!
didnt get to bump into someone and idiot never reply my text! ):
nvm.
LALALA!
kays ciaos!
work plus trg tmr! :/
nighty people!
byes !

BPPP ISWEAR IM HAPPY LIKE AS IF I CAN FLY! :)

I HAD A GREAT DAY! :)
although in the morning i forget about the cashier key and went back home and take!
but work was alright, people there always dote me like a lil girl and yes i am a lil girl to them. HAHAH!
my sous cheif and his wifey are nice to me.
they also pei me take train leys! :)
so nice of them ! cute sweet loving couple ! :)
went for trg !
trg was alright!
my shots seems to be more on nao!
but well it can be better!:)
went to meet daddy and the rest.
shishus, sister, mingzhe , daddy angie and yea shifu?
some how weird but im trying to accept him back ,cause someone gave me good advices! :)
and and the most impt thing that im very about is ......
teehees! if you were with me today you know i know uhs!
just happy only ! damm!
think i sleep also can smile to myself ! :)
LALALA!:)
bppp wo jin tian zhen de hen kai xin worhsczx! :)
so long since i ever felt so happy over such small things! :)
xoxo.

yoyosczx!
work seems to getting more and more...
i dunno what to say but yea.
new manager came today.
to be frank she is kinda nice but yea..
a weird feeling in me. hahah.
and omgosh! angie neo text me today !:)
im happy cause she finally FINALLY MISSES ME!:)
and someone i dun expected text me too.
i dunno how to forgive you , i dunno how to trust you again.
i dunno how to build back our f/s.
i dunno when you will choose love over our f/s again.
i know my shishus never leave me before.
they are the ones here for me when i needed them.
they plan outing for me just to cheer me up.
they talk cock with me when im bored.
they care for me when im sick.
they text me when they miss me.
they share with me their happiness and sadness.
shishus are the only ones here for me, not you.
you choose to choose her over me, over our f/s.
nao out of the blue, you text me.
asking for forgiveness , telling me you know nothing at all.
i know its not your fault that you are being fooled by love too.
but i just i just dunno how to convince myself to forgive you.
everyone just asking me to forgive you, telling me you know nothing at all.
i dunno if you deserve it, really.
i just look at your text and stone.
i dunno what to reply, i dunno what should i say to you .
i dunno when i see you again, whats the first thing i should say.
i dunno if i see you i would ever smile.
i just know , shishus treated me like a princess, trusted me like their sister, and supporting me always.
and you, in my heart you are just someone who betray my trust, who broke my heart.
nothing else.
sorry that nao i dun have the ability to just tell you, its okays.
and shishus is defending you and helping you with good words.


SHISHUS! TAY BENG HOE AND LIEWCHONG KIT!
I LOVE YOU TWO DEEP DEEP!:)
thanks for everything :)

yayyy!
finally ivyng has the time to blog and on her lappy ! :)
have been working everyday and no rest day for me!
its tiring, shag and bored at times.
but at least there things to do and keep my mind off from nonsense! :)
went shopping with buddy that day and nao im broke !
tsk !
work , trgs and i want to go out with my lovelys !
and school seems to be opening soon !
and polite is coming.
wth is this?
and yea im still as lazy and getting fatter each day !
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
i wanted to bloggg so much but i dunno what should i say !
and i wanna change phone badly!
this phone sucks because its problematic but great because it brings me many good memories. HA!
contradicting huh?
abit lorhsczx !
i want iphon34!):
and yeaaa that day i saw my cutie pie boy and he,s working with mingxiong and when i see him i just smile like an idiot !
i swear he damm CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
and and and he said hi &bye with his sexy smile!
omgosh! meltsczxscsxzssc! :)
teehees.
but he had a bad hair cut! ):
nvm still cute!:D
LALALA!
and everybody! he finally replied my MSG! and i swear im damm happy!
i mean super duper happy!
even if its just a text! HAHAH!
nothing could beat this happiness!
and i just cant stop repeatedly reading his text! :)LALALALA!
i know its dumb and stupid!
but im really really very happy !
at least at least he read and at that moment he think of me !
HAHAH! okays, i know its ridiculous!
but just yi ge HAPPY NIA ! :)
although nothing could change, we couldnt be like how we used to be, and and i somehow still misses, still wishing , still hoping. but im contented alr.
really, it might seems silly that a text could get me so happy and ridiculously stupild crazily hyper but yea, thats me.
and to be frank, i wish it could be more than a text. :/
BUTBUT im contented alr !:)
so yea! its enough.
asking more = greedy and bad things will just happen again.
so yea , :D
LALALALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
whengood thing happened means bad thing will come too.
but yea hopefully its over .
doesnt matter right?
all along its just me.
hahah .
yayynesss! finally one day off from work !
gonna meet lovelys for lunchy and trg! :)
i really should start exercising ! ME FATTTTTT! and UGLYYY !
CUI TTM !
okays , shall stop nagging!
byes all!
xoxo!

BANGS! i have got a ugly hair naosczx!
shouldnt have cut but i wanted to cut long ago.
and yea i just wanna whine and rant about it.
hahah. its okays it will GROW!
tsk!
work is tiringgggg! but so far so good! :)
and im gonna meet buddy later ! :)
yayness! and working at night again. :)
seeya people!
i miss many of my friends! :)






























and i hope i dont bump into you again.

hellosczx!
im back to my bloggy! :)
im sure many miss me !(:
teehees!
just got back from tp trg camp ytd!
camp day 1 !
the first thing is running.
and that seriously turn me off.
4 sets of 3rounds at stadium under MR SUNNY is killer kays!
but 1 great thing for me : i didnt walk! :)
and it might seems easy to some people.
but seriously when im running its seriously on mental.
i just keep telling myself i can do it, i cant walk, and i cant throw kaixuan face. :/
i dunno why i have that thot but i know i might lost to people physically but 1 thing i cant lost to them mentally too.
so yea. just keep telling myself i can.
it might be small lil things but frankly im proud of myself.
at least i didnt walk, i didnt give up! :)
yeaa. den trg and break and trg and break and back to trg again.
day one with 3 trgs and two breaks! and we had MAC for super.
what the hell right? but its okays!
i love the bond anyway. :)
we might not be very bond but at least we cheer for one another.
and dance studio is cold and sleeping on the floor is killing my back.
i guess some of us didnt really managed to sleep much too.
wakey dokey at 7plus.
and trg camp day two.
start off with running again :/
but this time round coach make us run indoor!
a total of 60 rounds about 5km.
and yea we survived it through .
its a great run. :)
den rest and last trg and yayy ICEBATH! :)
we kope all the iceeee and i swear icebath is super fun! :)
but my aching is still here with me !):
my legs damm ache!):
whatever! tskk! nvm ! me strong! :)
home and dinner with damian . :)
movie and had a great sleep!
was tired in the morning when i woke up.
and when i wanna go to work it started raining like cats and dogs.
ts! annoying , such good weather i cant sleep !
working at marina was kinda alright.
the business there is obviously better than dessert ministry !
but well, im sure dessert ministry will do well someday too!(:
got my pay and im damm disappointed with it.
arghh! nvm ! next month my pay must gao gao!
LALALA!
went shopping with my girlfriends chiakee and rachel.
had fun! and love them many many! (:
TEEHEES!
bppp got her itouch! happy for her! :)
and im kind of happy and contented with my life nao.
i wanna enjoy my single and carefree life.
bball, friends , work and school are my priority naosczx.
i dont wanna get into any r/s or talk about r/s thingy nao.
i just wanna be alone, with my friends and be happy with my life.
thats all. as simple as that.
so god, im not asking for more.
just let me lead this simple life. :)
and i will love you many many ! HAHAH!
shall stop here alr.
nightyys!

and nao i couldnt stop thinking. :/

and that second was the best part of my day. (:

and your name pop out and my heart goes haywire again.

awww.
im tired! :/
wakey dokey early in the morning and off to work at 12!
work was alright and i requested to work in the kitchen! :)
i dunno isit a good or bad thing but at least i get to learn new thingyy yea?
afterall work was not that bad and people there were nice (Y) and im happy!:)
and maybe maybe part of the reason was also because i work tgt with my girlfriends. :)
off for trg after work and im swear im tired.
stand throughout the whole journey is like wth .
standing whole day plus balling is kind of killer.
but well afterall trg was not as tiring. :)
went to have dinner with lovely tp teammates and gossip and have fun . :)
and lastly homesweethome.
bball trg camp is monday and frankly im not looking forward at all !
5 trgs and the though of running at stadium kills me mentally and i have got a 12hr work on sunday! wish me luck please. :(
but afterall i hope we had a great bond and my first polite cup will be a good one !(:
and seriously, when i dont need any love story , i dont need any guy all just start appearing, fml.
what the hell is this?
dear god are you playing a trick on me?
and please if you were to be clever enough please dont confess.
omgosh. just kill me or perhaps i think too much.
and to be frank, ivyng dont deserve your(EVERYONE) nice-ness or sweetness or whatever.
im just a bitch. :)
and i am not talking about specific person, generally. :)
LALALA! :)
shall stop here!
byes ! :)