thankful :D

i think im pretty free lately therefore imma here to blog ,again.
sho fast its wednesday alr.
gosh time flies, especailly when you're having holidays.
watched hunger game on monday with rachel, baoyi and chiakee!
that show was awesome sho is the company. :)
and went dakota and have dinner and lao ban with chel and bao just nao.
had a lil catch up sessions and taking pictures as usual.
finally I've enough time for my girls.
realized last year i didnt spend enough time with them ):
sorry girls.
well, i promise to make it up nao. :)
true friends are always here for you no matter how much you neglected them, they will still not give up on you.
that shows how much my friends love me.
thanks babies. all my girls, shishus and twinny.
thanks for not giving me up. <3
yall are the best gift god gave me.
sho is my families and teammates!
Dear god, if you really exist.
please dont take them away from me.
i need them, alot.
sincerely , me.
XOXO




I dont treat someone particularly sweet when they meant nothing.
sho you must be special. <3 :)

sweet (:

hello there. :)
imma here to bloggggggg again.
i swear time is flying like dunno what.
sho fast I've been enjoying holiday for one MONTH ALR. ):
quite depress to know that.
orhkays, shutup.
i know its much better than many people alr. HAHAH
i have been going out everyday. no joke.
every single day since holiday started.
didnt get to nuaa at home at all.
spending really alot of time with my babies.
and spending some time with the lil boy.
seems like there's actually something for me to look forward to the weekends.
suddenly someone make me realized that there is actually someone who is willing to put a smile on my face.
i hope its not temporary.
because i know things always starts sweetly and end terribly.
well,you really make me smile alot and laugh alot.
how could someone be so sweet unconditionally ? <3 :)

anyway my dearest BP TWINNY is away for three days ):
and im missing her alr.
i hate to admit it but yes I MISS HER alr ):
nobody for me to GL and rant to for the next three days.
argh, cannot be selfish right ? ):
BUT i hope she have fun and enjoy herself (:
she deserve it :)
come back safely with the rest of my dears kays.
have fun people <3 :)


XOXO

everything are in place nao, i hope.

well, its 21st today.
glad to say it doesn't affect me anymore.
I'm over it, over you, jerk.
you aint gonna affect me anymore, not at all.
thanks for hurting me and leaving me.
you made me stronger and happier.
my life is pretty awesome without you.
but to be fair for once you are great in my life.
however you are the biggest mistake in my life.
whatever it is, i don't give a fuck anymore and i definitely wont miss you.
whatever you have done to me, i will rmb it.
i dont ever want to see you again, even if i do i will just pretend that i dont know you at all. you dont even fit to be a stranger to me.

hello there people!
im still enjoying my holidayyyys!
yes its fucking life.
spent quality time with my love ones.
im blessed to have sho many lovey people in my life.
thank you babies, for being here for me all the time.
to love and care for me.
to support me and dote me.
Im thankful for all my friends. :)
and my beloved family :)
I LOVE YOU ALL <3
imma pretty contented nao.
with my friends, families and you.
yes you, thanks for bringing me sho much laughter and smiles. :)
XOXO

“I felt like crying but nothing came out. it was just a sort of sad sickness, sick sad, when you can’t feel any worse. I think you know it. I think everybody knows it now and then, but I think I have known it pretty often, too often.”
— Charles Bukowsk

define life.

hi there.
havent been really blogging.
went bintan with my guai-est classmates.
we had fun by the beautiful scenery there. :)
great trip with them <3
came back and work for IT fair under epson printer.
sho busy and tired.
for that one week, i didnt even have any time to think about it.
and nao back to reality.
need to face the facts and all again.
this messy life , messy heart.
was trying sho hard to forget and ignore it.
have been running away from it long enough.
its time to face it and deal with it.
its really impossible to ignore and treat as if nothing happened.
18 months, we have been thru sho long sho many things.
its not easy to just walk away despite hating the fact that you've changed and love someone else.
i cant just forget about it like you.
i cant ignore like as if nothing happened like you.
i cant shut all theses feelings like you.
i just cant.
despite knowing that you moved on or even cheated on me.
i just have to deal with it, i know.
im moving on, but my mind is in a messed, my life is in a messed, sho is my heart.
im tired, very tired.
tired of escaping from this feeling.
tired of trying sho hard to be strong.

just like any other girl.
i wanna be loved.
i wanna be pamper.
i wanna someone to care for.
i wanna have someone to lean on.
i wanna have someone to hug when everything turns out bad.

somebody define life for me.
it wont rain forever.
but will this rain stop soon please.
i miss the smiles on my face.
i miss myself.