Its a sunday!

went amk and make my specs with rachel! 

yay new specs. but only canz collect it on wednesday!

went novena and meet xuan and chiakee after that.

we went to visit baobao together. (:

hopefully she can faster recover and dicharge. 

homesweethome.

short day spend with the girls <3

been spending alot of time with my ladies nao. (:

omgosh, its monday tmr. 

meaning having to work ):

but its only my start of intern and I've been complaining alr. :/

orhkays, ranting is my hobby. 

tmr gonna be a long dayyyyy. 

hellman. 

k, shutup.

byes.

XOXO

I guess I master the skill of keeping things to myself.

shopping day

Its a great shopping day with my slut ! chiakeeeeee ! <3

we went town and have our shopping spreeee! (:

5 hours of non-stop walking.

gosh, tiringggg but great day ! 

more dresses and top for me! :D

happygirl92.

went to supper with shishus(beng&chongkit) , mingzhe and chiakee! (:

chongpang nasi lemak and homesweethome! 

guess shopping really makes me happy ^^

XOXO.

sho I ask myself, Is there any reasons for me or us to keep this going?

if there is, what is that?

two days of interns.
was alrights, sup is naise but naggy maximum.
18 weeks more to go.
come on ivy ng, lets go.
meetup with my girls today, had fun (:
battleship was awesome, rihannah is hot as usual.
wanna go for some shopping badly.
this week pass pretty fast and tiring as well.
wanna make use of my weekends.
start of intern life, means weekends are precious.









miss having someone to cuddle with.




XOXO.






cant feel you and perhaps paranoid again.

depressedgirl92.

what is love?

HI HI~

imma here to rant again. 

went to ktp today for my appointment. 

but fuckup, they told me its wed and the card had yesterday's date.

sho another 2 hours of waiting time. 

had a fight with mum at the hospital, embarrassed maximum. 

I cant stand her. seriously. nobody canz.

sho I had this dunno what infection at my throat. 

although its not painful anymore but the doc says its still swollen and I have to go back again next week. 

if its still swollen, imma in big trouble. 

sho imma gonna be a good girl and watch what I eat for ONE FUCKING WEEK.

FML.

I better be a good girl, stubbornness leads me to spending of almost $200 of medical fees. 

I could have spend this on shopping! argh. 

thinking of it makes me sad. 

but its orhkays~ lesson learnt!

when you're sick, you know best who is the one that cares for you. 

anddddd imma nao at home rotting! 

gonna go back for intern tmr alr.

I hope my pinoy HR and indian manager will be naise.

miss pinoy please dont make my life difficult cause imma not the one that scolded you.

LALALA~

I hope intern is not boring~

I rather be busy than bored.

good luck to me :)

imma a girl that loves to eat, despite the amount of food I eat is small.

I love junk food ,comfort food ^^

all the sweet stuffs and drinks.

especially when imma feeling down , I would vent it all on them.

of cos it doesnt work all the time.

sometimes those sweetness wont really make you feel sweet in the heart. 

can someone define love for me?

what is love?

can it be eaten?

seen too many bastards and jerks that I dunno what is it anymore.

not only I seen it in my own situation and also others.

I really dont understand how could a person say they love you this moment and tell someone else the same thing the next moment?

why is their love sho cheap? sho fucking cheap.

its possible to love many at once, your families , your friends, your other half.

but thats different kind of love. 

how do you love two guys/two girls at the same time?

if you love the first one, you wont notice the second one, moreover loving them.

what the hell is this man, call this love?

I call this rubbish, ridiculous, lying, cheating, irresponsible !

why do god create sucha people on earth?

EW. 

theres really no guy that can be trusted. 

I cant fucking trust one. 

omgosh. 

horrible.

IMMA CRAVING FOR KOI, KFC, MOS BURGER, MAC, PIZZA HUTZZZZZ, BK, ICE MILO, GCONGCHAAA, and many many more. 

BUT I HAVE TO WAIT TILL I FULLY RECOVER.

K, I NEED TO STOP RANTING~

imma a ranting bitchhhh~

goodbye.

XOXO.

I want a guy that will fight for me, because I gotta too tired fighting for someone.

prove me wrong.

 

what have i been thinking?

nightmare.

horrible.

went to see doc ytd yet was being refer to A&E.

i didnt know sore throat could be that serious.

the last thing i want is that surgery.

please, may my condition gets better.

went school for briefing today and intern gonna start tmr.

intern barely started and imma alr on MC.

this is bad.

IMMA CRAVING FOR ALL THE FAST FOOD.

cant wait to recover.

this pain is killing me.

argh.

get to hear this on 987FM.

how do you know if a guy likes you?

if a guy tells you he likes you yet not wanting commitment means he doesnt love you.

if you have doubts in a guy, he definitely doesnt love you or maybe not enough. because if a guy loves you he will show you through actions and make you feel secure and complete.

what do you think?

gotta go have my medicine nao.

goodbye.

XOXO.

at this holy hour..

I dont know why imma awake at some random timing and i cant sleep back.

was thinking of the boy.

I really do miss you.

maybe sometimes we are unsure of our own feelings.

but what i know is that since day 1.

you have been keeping me smiling.

always there to listen to my rants.

reading my mind likka book.

caring about me, worrying about me.

one day, it will all be clear.

just that one day.

sweetie, you light up my life when its the dark. <3

those smiles and laughter you've brought to me make me realized that there's actually someone out there willing to make me happy.

thankyou.

XOXO

Time flies when you don't look at it

ohwell.

didnt realized I haven't been blogging the past few days.

its friday alr.

orhkays thursday night for me.

met my girls this week.

Tuesday night dinnerz and ice cream with rachel, baoyi and xuanny.

catching up and spend some quality time together.

wed night party with C and A at rebel.

and I slept till 6 in the evening.

gosh, my body clock is damm screwed.

supposed to meet my H&M ex colleagues for dinner at town,

yet I fly them plane.

have been watching on call 36 hours this few days.

its a hk drama, I think its quite a naise and meaningful drama.

finished the show alr.

this week is coming to an end soon.

it also mean holiday is ending and intern is starting.

gosh thinking about it sucks...

well will be under PREMA but doing FM services for nation library board.

thinking of my group mate is seriously.... headache.

sighhhh.

have to face the facts anyway.

19 weeks of intern, wish me luck people.

anyway gonna meet my loveliest teammates later.

dinnerz at chomps with my fav people.

likka finally.

sighhhhhhhhh..

school is starting, intern is starting sho will be training ):

I really really don't want to face it.

lost that passion, lost that love, lost that confidence, lost my way, lost my..self.

I don't know how I used to love bball sho much.

I don't know how I used to spend sho much time on it.

I don't know how I used to sacrifice sho much for this.

sho much sweat, tears, hard work, time, commitment and effort on it.

yet I've lost it. lost touch, lost that passion.

have been running away from it for two months alr.

two months for not touching that orange ball, without training.

everything is back to zero.

can I please please not face it?

can time just stop at this moment?

stop at holidays?

I know time don't stop for anyone neither does it turn things around.

gosh, this is bad.

I don't know how life gonna be like when intern starts.

work, training, friends, families and everything else.

suchaaa headache thinking about all theses.

what goes through a guy mind when he starts falling for a girl?

I really don't know how to differentiate between liking someone or just friend's concern.

I really don't want to think about it but I just can't help it.

how to get rid of all those thoughts?

more than friends, less than lovers.

sucks. seriously.

only feeling it here and there.

I really don't like this feeling.

I know I know how he is always there for me.

listening to my rants, caring about how I feel.

but I really don't know what is all these.

perhaps I care too much, think too much.

sorry, but this is me.

been telling myself to be contented with whatever I have.

be contented of my life.

I've been trying too hard.

sometimes I wish I could control my own thoughts and feelings.

sometimes I wish there is a stop, pause and play button in my life.

maybe it's just another emotional night.

tmr will be better.

because it wont rain forever.

goodnights.

goodbye.

XOXO

MY GIRLS!

this is the cutest me! (and yes im that kind of girl that only look good in photos)

thats my bitch! <3

club boss ^^

thats my slut ! <3

thats my hairless! <3

BAOBAO AND CHEL! :)

MY BABIES! :)

Thats my ahwang ! <3

thats my twinny bp ! <3

thats my honey ! <3

thats my xuanny ! <3

lessons learnt..

perfect sunday!
had lunch with the boy, gotta myself KOI.
home and had ahma's BKT and a big juicy apple.
spend a lil time with my son and daughter.
happygirl92 :)
however period forever being a bitch.
moodswing, pms, crankyness, cramps.
BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
but afterall its still greatttt day ! :)



suddenly, I rmb how loser I used to be.
especially that super loser scene that I will never forget.
and IVY NG swear she will never be that fucking loser again.
I will never make the effort to make anyone stay in my life anymore if they wanna leave.
I will never do anything for anyone that wont appreciate the things I've done for them.
I will never make effort for anyone if they dont.
I will never love anyone when they dont.
if you want me, you fight for it.
nothing in the world comes free.
If you want my trust, you earn it.
because I learnt that trust is not easy and it should be earned by hardwork.
I'm no longer that old me anymore.
I'm no longer that loser that give in just because I love that someone.
I'm no longer that weak.
I'm a tough strong girl nao.
Yes, I'm finally learning my lessons and mistakes after sho long.
I've learnt that if i dont allow certain things to hurt me, it wont.
I've learnt to shut the pain off.
I've learnt to hide that pain and keep the pain to myself.
I've learn that if someone loves me, he'll fight for me and never walk away from me no matter what happened.
I've learnt that if someone loves you, he'll always make time for you no matter how busy he is.
I've learnt that lies, excuses, cheating is what guys are good at.
I've learnt that actions speaks louder than all those sugar coated words.
but sometimes guys are pretty good actors too.
that what all the jerks have taught me.
thanks for teaching me sho much.
most importantly I HAVE LEARNT THAT LEOPARD WILL NEVER CHANGE ITS SPOTS.
ONCE HE CHEATEF BEFORE, ITS LIKELY HE WILL CHEAT AGAIN.
lastly, fuck all the guys out there that is cheating on girls.
if you don't like someone, just walked away.
if you dont love your gf anymore, break up.
there's no point in cheating.
just fuckoff.


The biggest mistake I have made in my life is letting people stay in my life far longer than they deserved to.


just before I end,I'm really glad for the people that have always been here for me.
you know who you are. thanks babies. I love yall. <3 (:


and my candy, for all the laughers and smiles that you've brought to me. <3 :)



goodbye.
XOXO.

had a simple sat.
just nua at home.
spend some time with my baobei son.
meet up with xuann.
went holland V to have ice creammmm.
omgosh lychee martini flavour with waffles are awesome (Y)
it really damm shiok.
i love it.
spamming pictures at wendy's with the girl.
back to amk and had maccc for supper.
FATTTT!
and both of us are havig sore throat -.-
nao my throat is likka painnn !
nao imma homee rotting and watching teevee too.
had a great sat :)



wanna rant but dunno what to rant.
arghhhhh.
what is this damm feeling in me.
fuckkkk.
can i fucking screammmm ?
im home alone at night and i cant sleep alone ):
argh!





goodbye.
goodnights.

XOXO

TGIF

TGIF! :)
its friday today!
yay, actually it doesnt affect me much cause imma still having holidays.
but for the people out there TGIF !
gonna partehhhhhy tonight with my girls!
the last clubbing session before school starts!
however imma gonna partehyy despite being sick ):
hopefully it wont get worse ):
body aching , headache and sore throat.
best combo ever. (N)
argh !
orhkays, i just need to rant and rant.
enough ranting.
byes.

XOXO



imy.

लातेली..

finally time to blog again !
time flies seriously.
two more weeks of holiday left.
and for the past one and a half month i have been really enjoying my holiday.
having plans almost everyday.
indeed enjoyed my holidays.
best holiday ever.
bintan trip, kl trip, jb trip.
spending time with my love ones too.
love this holiday the mosttt ! :)
well back to reality two more weeks to intern ):
and best part still dunno where yet.
hopefully its a good company and most imptly its not far from my placeee!
ohyea! watched the vow and it was only average.
it didnt turned out to be as good as expected.
but the company is great :)
went jcube on mon but didnt manage to shop ):
wasted, travel sho far yet didnt get shop at the place. ):
shall go again some other time.
and went for cystal jade xlb buffet ytd at holland V to celebrate julia's 20th!
good food good company.
buttttttttttttttt..
came back having sore throat and headache.
sho nao imma stuck at home , sleeping the wholde day.
sucks to be sick. ):
welllllllllllllll, at least i feel better nao.
wanted to go for a joggggg but how to go lidatttt. ):
argh!
i hate feeling fat and always ammmmmm. fuggg.
orhkays enough ranting.

andd, my dear girls have been down this few days.
cheerup beautifuls.
it wont rain forever.
it wont hurt if you dont allow it to.
i know not mentioning it is because you dont wanna remind yourself of the pain again.
but you can always choose to not let it affects you.
i know its eaier said than done.
but just hang on people.
smile people :)


goodbye.

XOXO.


sho when to guard the heart and when to love again ?

SHOW LUO 羅志祥-愛入非非 CD ver.

this is awesome too <3

羅志祥-不用說 CD version

i love this song.

another day.

hi there.
had a great day today with my girls, orhkays it should be yesterday.
went NYP to find my shishu again and also wait for my girls to end school.
teehee.
den town with my girls (xuan, wei, chew)
we had GENKI SUSHI for dinnerz.
that place is really cute.
take order through IPAD and the food will deliver through a mini toy train.
its really cute. :)
thennnnnnnnnnnnnn...
we decided to lepak at the basement of orchard central.
chit chat and get GC! ^^
heehee.
went for a lil shopping at F21 and H&M, but gotten .... nothing.
home sweet home after a tiring day for the girls.
although we only met for a short period of time.
i always enjoy myself with them.
they are my happy pills.
today is a great day.
but tomorrow gonna be awesome.
becauseeeeee....
THE VOWWWWWWWWW TMR! YAYYYYYYY!
and its with the boy. :)
k, shall stop here.
goodnights people.



XOXO

=首播=羅志祥 Show [有我在 Count on Me ] 官方版 MV

His song His voice, meltzzzzzzzz! <3
i love him. <3

=首播=羅志祥 Show [不具名的悲傷] 官方版 MV

HUBBY's new song <3
 He is always sho awesome. (Y)

XOXO

you.

finally, i have to stop guessing.
know that i feel the same way too.
you <3


XOXO

lil things

I really like people who remembers the very small details of mine.
the lil habits.
the lil things I like and I dont.
the lil things I said and done.


XOXO

I dunno what went wrong and i hate this feeling.
and No, its not because of him, cause imma over him.
just this annoying feeling is making my heart heavy.


XOXO.






and i happen to see this :
''Don’t expect someone to stay sweet forever because even the sweetest chocolate has an expiration date.''