so, its officially over, before chirstmas.
anyway, merry chirstmas people.

sometimes you gotta uds why girls get so sensitive, paranoid, jealousy and maybe irritating.
it because sometimes we lose the faith that that someone special gonna stay with us.
we gets tired of going through the same long thing and gets the same ending.
we dont like to go thru a r/s, make time and efforts in it and gets the same ending.
we just want someone to love and someone who love us and only us.
we just want that assurance, that love, that care, that faith, that honesty and loyalty.
i know sometimes we asked for too much, we take things for granted.
but have you ever wonder you're doing the same thing too.
you took us for granted just because we love you, just because you know we wouldnt leave. just because we always forgive you even when you hurt us million times.
loving is about taking and giving.
nobody is perfect, not you, not me not anybody.
we complain, we rant because we dont hide our feelings and somehow wish certain things work.
sometimes we wanna listen to you too, listen to your rants and complaints.
we wanna know what youre thinking, what you want.
we dont walk away as easily, as bravely like you do.
even when we do, we are waiting for you to make us stay.
we always stay to try to fix the problem, yet what you did is get rid of the problem.
maybe thats your way of doing things.
but please know , like you we have hearts that will bleed.
im not trying to blame it all on guys.
im just trying to say sometimes its hard to uds guys are thinking and sometimes they just cant uds certain things and certain reactions.
well, see what love have done to all of us.

hello there.
today is a good day and yes only today.
the past few days were horrible.
mindfucking and stressful.
have been looking back too much lately.
which i shouldnt be doing.
and also holding on too tightly on certain things in my life.
i dunno since when i became the way i am.
i forgotten how does it feels to be truely sincerely happy about every small lil things.
i forgotten how does happiness feels like.
emotional? yes. very.
and thats what i hate about myself.
once i step into something, be it f/s or r/s, i give my all.
i put my heart and soul in it.
dont ever doubt me, because i know myself best.
sometimes i envy people who could let things go so easily.
alrights, if i were to go on, it would be never ending.
so coming back to why isit a good day today.
met my bestest friend twin pork TAYHWEITENG! :)
heehee, we went kovan and had DOMINO PIZZZZA for lunch!
heehee good food, good company.
so its a good day <3 :)
i have to say, she is one of my bestfriend who will always be here for me.
to pull thru my worse and down times tgt.
be it how hard a person i am to deal with, she never leaves.
and im really grateful to have her in my life :D
sounds wrong? but yes she is that great.
thank you for being part of my life and thank god for sending sucha asshole girl in my life :D HEEHEE
hate you BP! :)

well, my boy is on his way to my place too.
just spend some time tgt.
cuddling and watching running man! ^^
as simple as that.
and we are happy :)

well, before i go..
two more fucking papers and its party time!
LETS PARTY BABES&HUNKS! <3
fuckyeah.
xoxo.