too many things running through my lil mind.

hey there!
seems like i havent been blogging after that super long post !
what have i done this few days?
let me rewind for you .
thursday : lighting projects and slacking with classmates and MEET erina!
hahah! and she got the same spec as me! we went shopping ! but sadded didnt get anything ! well, something so qiao happened again ! hahah! quite a joke anyway! (:
Friday : school and went to buy abrie's present and me went to meet my sweetie boy and rebel ! (: party every week seriously.
Sat: went to celebrate sissy abrie;s bday . teo heng to sing k and dinner at subway aftermath. (:
and finally today : went to town and bugis with baby to get my CNY clothes . but i got got a maxi dress and nothing else! sad life!
i still havent got my shoes,bags,more clothes ! argh !
shall cont tmr after school !
finally im gonna meet bpppppp tmr! (:
YAYNESS! :D
alrights survive mon&tues and happily go for CNY okays ? (:
goodbyes !
xoxo.

trash it all out

salut ! (:

today got feel to blog! and its very late nao , i got a math test tmr and i havent study yet ! great! (Y)

well, good thing about it is my school starts late tmr ,so im gonna wake and study in the morning !

anyway im supposed to have a short day for wednesday(S) , exception for today because...

i went to ms to meet jiahui as she got work for me to do , and i cant afford not to work .

and im back to school again for some team meeting.

had a team talk with paul and it took alot of our precious time !

well, its a good talk i guess. hopefully an useful one please! (:

best part of the day is DINNER AT BEDOK 85 !

satisfy another craving of mine (Y)

BA CHOR MEE, PORRIDGE, CARROT CAKE,HAO JIAN, CHICKEN WING and ICE MILO! (Y)

i know its very fattening and i know im getting fatter alr !

everybody is saying , even my BOSS said that when he saw me today! ):

like a very sad! but but i promise i WILL KEEP FIT WITH THE YAO (XIAOQIAN) after CNY!

i will! and everyday im constantly reminding myself SELF-DISCIPLINE !

you know, its not like you say you wanna change and BOOF immediately you become the person you want to be . everythings takes time and sometimes its a long period of time.

i may not be perfect and im very bad , i know, but i felt that from the past me till nao i have alr changed alot . and im still trying and i know im still very bad.

family.

i love my family alot although we aint like how other family are supposed to ce.

complicated . but jia jia you ben nan nian de jing.

i just hope things get better .

i believe dad&mum have suffered alot alr, espcially my beloved daddy .

god if you ever exist please go easy on him .

because i cant afford to lose him, w/o him i will be nothing.

there are 2 guys in the world who will only love me and not hurt me, thats daddy&korkor. <3

and i love them alot .

although i dun mention much about him but i care for him okays .

although there are alot of bad times we had but i still love my family alot .

school .

HELLHELLHELL

because of me , myself and i .

i have been slacking and doing nothing ever since i step into poly .

im lazy during secondary school but im ever lazier in poly !

and that kills ! because its projects and projects, quizs and assignments every week , everyday !

and i have not been doing much ! :/

keep finding excuses for myself, idiot much i know.

know what?

i always blame people for giving up on me .

being sensitive and all .

just then i realised that actually my friends are helping me but im giving up myself.

i believe that at time when they tried to giveup on me i deserved it.

because its like if you try so hard to help someone but the person keep doing nothing ,you also will be sianxed and eventually duncare.

BUT GOOD THING IS MY FRIENDS THEY WILL EVENTUALLY STILL HELP ME !

and den i felt guilty because i felt that i alway let them down.

they are right, even if they want to help me, i dun help myself also no use.

so im gonna start doing my work nao !

like for the one month just chiong only!

although i feels that i might retake some of the modules!

and it never too late to know your mistakes right ?

HAHAH! after these few days of trashing emotions to people, i think alot !

and realised alot of things!

okok, conclusion , i will try not to give up on myself (:

thanks my lovely girls :D

team (KX)

where should i start ?

why i join kx?

because i wanted to learn to have self-discipline.

i always thought that kx is a very very very discipline and organised team .

and i want to change or maybe prove people wrong that im not that kind of player they think i am .

so i went and i really learn alot of things there .

but i didnt commit much to it because things happened here and there.

although i felt that im not bond with the team, sir always assure me that im his player, in kx , one of them .

sir is understand and naise (too naise at times)

and i really have to apologise for always disappointing him and wasting his efforts.

when sir said that : ivy, i know that your heart is with kaixuan and dont worry kaixuan will always have a place for you.

i really really ver touched, but partly sad too .

because my heart isnt whole heartedly with kx.

part of me still live in the past , even the fact that they duncare .

but yea im moving on , like really move on.

stop comparing and start doing something .

it have been so long alr , and when i left none saud anything .

none came and talk to me about my life or ask abbout anything or show any concern at all .

so i assume that its okays with them that im not with them .

i hold on so much because i believe that i done alot for the team .

but seems like afterall its not so much isnt it ? because if i really did alot, they would have care .

but why after i left for so long they just treat it as nothing happened?

well, say so much also no use right ?

because i did alot of wrong things too .

and yea, im gonna move on .

goodbye hu, hello kx. (: <3

team(TP)

we have alr said whats in our mind.

i just hope that all of us will meant what they said.

and make it into actions instead of just empty words.

and i have to say i have a very strong captain.

thankyou for being so strong and not givingup .

you have suffered alot, we gonna save you this year okays ?

i really cant wait to keep fit with you because the fact that everyone is complaining that im getting fatter !

and the years3 that are graduating , although i dunno you are very well except for yh !

thanks for being part of my life !

like ahsam i really hope she recover fast and nothing happened to her anymore, she had enough of injuries, shes a strong girl, so dear god , go easy on her please.

seeing her lidat make us heartache only !

and my dear miss chua please find back your confident! like hope you sleep wakeup and then found it alr !

hahahah ! hope miss cm knows whats she wanna do after graduation ! and miss jingjing to start practicing good hygiene ! HAHAHA !

and and and i really hope many many more players will really start putting in effort as what they had promised.

and the new batch will be good too , like attendance and bonding with us .

2011 TP WILL MAKE A TURN BACK! WE PROMISE !

everyone, im starting to love you all alr (Y)

aww` im so sweet .

i swear if my teammates read this, they gonna start saying im yao again -.-

hate them sometimes for saying me yao ):

like such a cute me let them say until lidat! sigh...

whahahah! okays if qian-er were to see this she gonna point her middle finger to me! HAHAH !

okays, in conclusion, we are gonna find the warrior in us and fight hard . <3>

friends (wei,chew)

thank you bitches for being my honey&ahwang!

life will be hell without you two .

with you guys there will always be gossiping and PHOTO TAKING! :D

and and the best is we know that we wont bitch about each other (Y)

we should really meetup soon! (:

i love you girls so much ! (Y) <3

THT(BP)

you know what, everything i want to say you know it .

because we are twin , you know whats in my mind alr.

really cannot stand our twin genes.

bp one thing to say only : sorry that i have been neglecting you these days and at times im taking you for granted . because you are really very impt to me, VERY .

you are the exceptional one, I HATE YOU ALOT PLEASE ! _l_

other close friends: sister,shishus,girlfriends and all .

thanks for bearing with my nonsense all the time.

sorry for all the ridiculous rubbish that i gave you.

friends really mean alot to me .

xoxo. (:

MY LOVELY BOY! (:

finally im talking about you nao.

okays, i dunno if its a good/bad thing but well thanks for not giving up on me. (:

things seems to gets better after we trashed things out .

you got sweeter, put in more efforts.

every lil things you've done, i see it, feel it and sense it okays ? (:

although there are still times that you are insensitive or im too sensitive to it .

but well im someone who has too much of insecurities in me when lil tiny bit of thing i felt that is impt and you think its not or never even realised it .

and i have constantly remind myself to be content too !

like not forcing you too much, expecting too much from you .

trying to really treasure all the time spent and cherish while you still love me .

and you are going to get enlisted SOON ! like when im having my holidays! ):

thats very sad and nao im very busy and we have got no time to meet ):

THAT ADD ON TO MY SADNESS! ):

and i have to start from stretch again , because i have to adapt days without you here.

okays thinking about it is alr killing me seriously !

lalala i know im acting like a li girl again, but let me whine okays !

hahaha ! and and thanks for bearing my childishness and stubbornness !

and and and clingy -NESS! hahaha ! opps!

lalala! iduncareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, can you not serve the nation ? okays, im just kidding ! :/

i love you baby !

goodnights! :)

finally im gonna stop here for godness sack and also because im very tired alr!

nights people ! :D

xoxo.

hectic

bonjour , im back !
lalala~ today had a long day in school!
got hotel as the topic for my french speaking test!
oh dear, i hope the teacher wot be laughing at me that day !
well, did a lil role play in class today and its damm funny.
im laughing through the whole session!
and esfac test like a cui ! tsk !
my class seriously have a bunch of idiots that is super annoying .
feel like giving them a punch in the face each! argh!
anyway went to dinner with claudia and nicole after school .
had GONG CHA! <3 like a happy kid only !
and nao im at home! resting! like a tired only!
i miss my boy badlyyyyyyyy~ ):
but this week im very very busy ! ):
dunno when can we meet ):
sigh!
and pms is fuckup ! ):<
whatever lah!
dun wanna care alr!
lalalal!
ciaos~



















baby, you made me smile when i had the worst days <3

hey there seems like i havent been blogging for every long but its just a few days only .
ytd was a short day in school . 2hrs of school!
saw julia&joey,vivian&chiaming at mrt station and im with claudia tan !
hahah so we took train tgt cause all of us heading to the same destination .
babe went to meet her love and i went to meet my boy too .
so headed to shatec with him , yet wasted trip cause this idiot is so dumb . -.-
den head back to yishun and went to visit eric.
went pool with js&co .
and homesweethome.
and nao i am at home nua-ing.
i really miss going to kx trg , seriously.
it there a pill for laziness?
so i can start studying and balling ?
okays its just me , lazy , damm fucking lazy.
no wonder so fat alr.
everyone is complaining about me getting fatter each day /
esp damian wong, EVERY SINGLE DAY HE IS NAGGING! FML!
i hate him ):
okays, shall start doing some work alr.
goodbyes. (:

had a long day in school on wed, presentation was screwed .
and more and more assignments&projects, TESTS coming up .
i have got 3test next week ! argh !
anyway den went to tamp mall with julia,jessie and claudia . (:
had pastamania for dinner . (Y)
and was chatting and the topic made us laugh like some crazies !
and me headed to meet my boy for movie! (Y)
had quality time spend with him and homesweethome! :D
wed was a short day in school.
psps is a waste of time seriously !
and yea stupid presentation -.-
den course talk and me went to xray and visit eric.
and im back to doc today !
he said nothing big happened , i just need to rest and take good care of my back!
and YAYYYY means i can ball alr! (Y)
lalala! happy only ! (:

these few days have been spending time with my boy.
and time with him is never enough .
but well,happy jiu hao . (:
goodnights !
xoxo .

it was supposed to be a good day , SUPPOSED.
i had a long day in school .
well skipped lectures in the morning though cause overslept.
okays, i dunno isit pre-menstruation mood swing or what .
im just a lil moody okays.
over plenty of stuffs.
especially when i though i could just give you a surprise.
because i know you are troubled, i though i could just be there for you .
yet i ruined it all , dont i ?
ask me whats the reason im so upset .
i will tell you i dunno, i really dun .
i though i could ease your trouble, somehow cheer you up, give you a big hug .
end up ? i screw-ed it!
fuck it ivyng ! seriously , i dunno whats wrong with me .
maybe maybe i just dunno how to be a good gf .
i worried for you more than myself.
what if you dun have somewhere to go ?
what if this? what if that?
whatever, you duncare and i duncare.
goodnights.

LALALA~
me gotta feel to blog but lazy /
so gonna make it short and simple if possible !
today whole day doing the damm FACOM! fml !
and i think i will drag my classmates down with the piece of work but well i really did my very best alr .
was at dad's place , stayover last night/
YAYYY kor is back with missy TAN! <3
i hope they get married and born me a cute niece! hahah! :D
lalala!
den wakey and start on my stupid project until i so pekchek!
and then my lovely baby came over and spend time with me !
how sweet can this boy be ? awww.super sweet <3
but he left and meet jl&jy for dinner .
cui while stay home and supposed to go dinner happily !
but well , my mum fuck it .
she gone crazy and stupidly spoil everyones mood.
i dun uds why must she be like this all the time.
she always bully dad.
and dad just let her be , bear with her nonsense!
the more she is lidat she more i dislike her.
alrightsm but i still love her cause shes my mum . -.-
anyway we still went out to eat .
and homesweethome .
got naggggggg again , but i duncare ~
used to it jiu hao !
LALALA!
and cont my facom until nao!
FML!
studies&family screw my day yet my baby boy turn it all ard ! (:
great to have you lovely. (:
cheerup my lovely boy, i wish i can make you feel better .
if i have to do anything to just make you smile, i will .
is sky could drop me a house key and money . that would be perfect.
i will just live happily ever after with you .
but well, see you in my dreams den.
goodnight world, goodnight baby ! <3 :D

force by me ! teehees! :D

like a kiddy only!

a kiss for a sweetiepie <3

damianwong (:

(:

honey&ahwang :D

honey <3

naise food! (Y)

babes (:

love the food and the people <3

yoyosczxvscssc!
what a lovely sat ivyng had!(:
TOWN TOWN AND STILL TOWN!
town with my babes ! honey&ahwang! (: (Y)
had a great time shopping with them ! :D
far ion to fareast to ion !
had a great lunchy and shopping ! quality time spent with my beloved girls! <3
and we went separate way after that!
honey went to meet her love , ahwang went home and then project !
and me me me meet my baby !
my lovely boy came town and look for me ! :D
walk walk , slack , take pictures and spend time tgt! (:
aww, like a sweet only right ?
BUT HE WENT TO PARTY AND LEFT ME HOME ALONE !
NOT SWEET ALR!
HAHAHHA! well its okays! (:
i still love him alot ! (:
aand i went home packed my stuffs and came over dad'd place!
had KFC for supper ! FAT ONLY! ):
well, gona stop here ,
project tmr ! jialat! ):
goodnights !
xoxo.
















boy, you are amazing just the way you are . :)

another super tiring day!
math quiz cui ttm .
im used to failing alr so doesnt matter .
okays, just kidding.
hmm . project again.
facom is seriously killing me ! ):
electrical installation! i know nothing about it seriously .
the drawing park sucks big time !
seriously FML!
den after project homesweethome!
know what? i have a ba lu gu on my head nao!
all thanks to damian wong!
he knuckle my head ytd nao so pain! ):
idiot!
and my boy went MIA!
dunno where the hell he went !
tsktsk !
project tmr again . damm it !
argh!
goodnightys!
xoxo .

it's a killer day today .
im very tired , very .
although only had half an hour of lesson and school ends alr.
yet we were all rushing our facom project !
can someone save me from this please.
lighting fixtures, switch control, circuits , electrical installation!
it killing me seriously, especially the drawing part!
argh!
and i forgotten to bring my medi to school and my back is killing me the whole day .
stupid right? i know -.-
anyway went to Eric's crib after project .
my boy came too (Y)
good that we have been trashing out alot of things lately .
but well, have faith in me .
because i believe, this time you are putting effort in it alr .
lets work hard tgt alright .
lets not think about how far we will go , lets just concentrate on the present and make things better!(Y)
no one will get between us , because you got to know.
all along theres only you . <3
alrights, im super tired to do anything !
argh!
facom jitao put aside!
originally i wanted to do it nao but im seriously fucking tired!
argh !
goodnights! (:

time to blog again ! (:
im on MC today.
11.1.11 <3
its a very naise date (Y)
nua at home and went to school and meet my lovely teammates.
went to support their game for IVP.
i missed my frst IVP game.
very sad , really .
can only watch them play and cant play.
that feeling sucks ttm .
coach almost asked me to play and he realised i cant .
ha . that even suck more .
well, maybe i deserved it .
whatever, shall work hard for next year then .
next year batch seems to be quite good, maybe that will motivate me to work harder .
hahah . hopefully .
well sad about bball, but good thing is that my boy is so sweet today . (Y)
honeymoon period? guess so .
hahah. well, treasure this moment well then .
shall not let my imagination go wild again .
trying very hard to not think so much .
hahah .
boy , thanks for the efforts made .
tell me how to love you lesser when you are so sweet .
your smile is the last thing i wanna lose. (:


anyway bppp!
cheerup okays!
have some time alone and think of what you want .
you and i will pull thru this tgt .
i will be here for you .
and i will support you no matter what (:
jiayous! (:

alrights i should hit the sack soon ! goodnights! :D
xoxo /

a short monday!
11-1pm TBP lab and end school alr !
yayness!
went to had lunch with erina ! (:
and talk to her about everything! (:
and i hope she and her bestfriend can be fine :D
goodluck!
and yea me went to see doc .
had an injection and 4 medicine back home with me !
):
doc say within 5 days nothing get better i need to go for xray! ):
like a sad only!
injection like a pain only uhs !
tsktsk !
i will be a good girl and eat the medicine on time .
but dear body can you recover within this 5days?
because i dunwant more injections&medicines alr! ):
arghh!
first IVP down the drain /
sad enough . ):
byes/

hello there .
me had a simple yet sweet day.
spend half my day at home .
and the other half with damian wong (:
went to amk and catch movie , dinner ! (:
have a walk home ! and talk about many many things !
gotta nag like there's no tmr !
hahah , but well , i have to admin most of the thing you said are true .
most of the time when im sad, im the cause of it .
i think too much, over sensitive and paranoia.
its good to know what you thinking and how you are feeling .
most of the time, im selfish , i only think of how i feel and care about how i feel.
neglecting your feeling, alway assuming that you wont be sad or care over what i wrote or said .
alright i will do some self-refelction!
goodnights people!
damian wong , ivyng loves you many many! :D

this weekend party like theres no tmr .
went to ph for two days .
PH (Y)
get to know two daniels, why so many danielllllll!!!
tsktsk ! common name i guess!
and one of this daniel is zzzzz.
sorry no more daniel for me , and FYI sweettalk dun work on me .=.=
anyway other than that i have got a great time .
especially friday ! (Y) :D
alrights!
shall stop here ! byes! (:

yo im back to blogging again .

school was alright ytd and went to meet my lovely happy pills.

honey&ahwang! <3>

shopping with honey at bugis first den headed back to amk for dinner .

and meet chew for camwhore and gossiping sessions! (:

and homesweethome .

went to help out at open house today ..

ask me fun anot ?

not at all . bored max .

worst still no hunks to see!

hahah ! den homesweethome .

nap and nao im rotting !

hahah!

anyway erina passed her BTT! (:

its gonna be my turn soon!

good job girl:D

okays, byes !

xoxo /

insecureness acting up again ? i think so . thinking too much , if it could be deleted like junk mails that will be great! :/

sigh .

rainbows after rain ? lets hope it last long enough .

i should really quit the habit of thinking too much .

but sometimes things are just infront of me and i couldnt not believe it :/

how ?

alrights , just dun think so much , dun assume.

hello dear friends (:

im back!

awww school gonna start in 10hours time!

fast isnt it ? especially holidays!

time flies like no need money!

i know many , in fact all of us are reluctant for school to reopen!

well , no mater what we still need to attend school!

no worries ivyng can whine and rant tgt with you !

because school is fucking far from home and the timetable sucks like dunno what !

anyway...

meet my slut cheng chiakee today !

we headed to town to have our hair cut !

ion first den lucky and den fareast to snap my ultra long hair away !

cut about 5-6 inches away!

got abit bu she de lah !

but well , just cut only ! it's shoulder length nao !

initially my hair is at my waist nao its shoulder length!

like a sad ! 3 years to let the hair grew so long and it takes only a few mins to snap it off!

hopefully it snapped off all the unhappiness, bad stuffs and all the bad things away !

new year , new look , new start yea ?

okays should stop whining alr .

anyway den went to catch little fockers with donny, jenkin and beng !

and den walk walk and homesweethome ! (:

goodnightys!

xoxo .

baoyi&ivy<3

rachel&ivy<3

chiakee&ivy<3

qixuan&ivy<3

hello 2011 , goodbye 2010 .

how's your countdowns for this lovely year twenty-eleven ?

mine was with my lovely clique of sec school friends .

went to watch fireworks den supper at bishan and slacking at bishan park and homesweethome.

awesome time spent with my lovely friends .

each year countdown people will definitely compared their celebrations with the previous ones .

so which year countdown was the best for you ?

seems like this year isnt quite a good one .

its not the people i went with , its just me .

many things happened in 2010 , good ones , bad ones .

good friends, bad friends , breakups, heartbreaks ,happy times, bad times.

have been through so much .

each year time flies faster and faster.

2010 hasn't been a great year for me , but i hope 2011 will make a better one .

not forgetting to thanks my awesome friends for being here for me !

and my beloved family , my daddy <3>

since its 2011 alr , shall not mention about 2010 alr .

so how's your first day of the year ?

1/1/11 (Y)

nice day yea ? eleven is always my fav !(:

i spend this awesome day with my cute/pretty/ sexy girlfriends ! <3>

qixuan,baoyi,chiakee and rachel . (:

meet up at amk hub!

ntuc to shop for food !

and head to marina barrage !

picnic , chit-chat , monopoly deal and camwhore ! <3>

den back to amk again!

and guess what ntuc to hunt for food again !

because we decided to have cup noodles over at baoyi's crib!

heehee , sucha lovely day with the girls ! :D

and nao here i am at home ! (:

anyway all my girlfriend starting psycho-ing me to cut my hair .

and thinking about it .

maybe new year , new start, new look .

cut away all the unhappiness, bad lucks and bad taohua ! HAHHA!

look forward to my new hairstyle?

i'll get back to you soon !

wait! just before i end my post!

whats your new year resolutions ?

i had mine alr ! eleven of them ! because you know 11 my fav <3>

IVYNG's new year resolutions :

1)learn to be independent .

2)lead a carefree and happy life .

3)stop crying over stupid things .

4)start studying * (try my best )

5)stop being lazy *( kind of hard )

6)be strong and stop emo-ing !

7)not to trust people to easily .

8)fall in love carefully .

9)takecare of my body health .

10)treasure everything and everyone i have .

11) love myself more <3>

okays i know my resolutions are ridiculous and stupid uhs .

but all is kind of hard!

but nothing is impossible!

so i will try my very besttttt! :D

without anyone , ivyng can live happily ever after too .

alright enough of my nonsense!

god if you really exist , please let al my friends have a great year , mine too ! <3>

thankyou .

goodbyes .

xoxo .