so, its officially over, before chirstmas.
anyway, merry chirstmas people.

sometimes you gotta uds why girls get so sensitive, paranoid, jealousy and maybe irritating.
it because sometimes we lose the faith that that someone special gonna stay with us.
we gets tired of going through the same long thing and gets the same ending.
we dont like to go thru a r/s, make time and efforts in it and gets the same ending.
we just want someone to love and someone who love us and only us.
we just want that assurance, that love, that care, that faith, that honesty and loyalty.
i know sometimes we asked for too much, we take things for granted.
but have you ever wonder you're doing the same thing too.
you took us for granted just because we love you, just because you know we wouldnt leave. just because we always forgive you even when you hurt us million times.
loving is about taking and giving.
nobody is perfect, not you, not me not anybody.
we complain, we rant because we dont hide our feelings and somehow wish certain things work.
sometimes we wanna listen to you too, listen to your rants and complaints.
we wanna know what youre thinking, what you want.
we dont walk away as easily, as bravely like you do.
even when we do, we are waiting for you to make us stay.
we always stay to try to fix the problem, yet what you did is get rid of the problem.
maybe thats your way of doing things.
but please know , like you we have hearts that will bleed.
im not trying to blame it all on guys.
im just trying to say sometimes its hard to uds guys are thinking and sometimes they just cant uds certain things and certain reactions.
well, see what love have done to all of us.

hello there.
today is a good day and yes only today.
the past few days were horrible.
mindfucking and stressful.
have been looking back too much lately.
which i shouldnt be doing.
and also holding on too tightly on certain things in my life.
i dunno since when i became the way i am.
i forgotten how does it feels to be truely sincerely happy about every small lil things.
i forgotten how does happiness feels like.
emotional? yes. very.
and thats what i hate about myself.
once i step into something, be it f/s or r/s, i give my all.
i put my heart and soul in it.
dont ever doubt me, because i know myself best.
sometimes i envy people who could let things go so easily.
alrights, if i were to go on, it would be never ending.
so coming back to why isit a good day today.
met my bestest friend twin pork TAYHWEITENG! :)
heehee, we went kovan and had DOMINO PIZZZZA for lunch!
heehee good food, good company.
so its a good day <3 :)
i have to say, she is one of my bestfriend who will always be here for me.
to pull thru my worse and down times tgt.
be it how hard a person i am to deal with, she never leaves.
and im really grateful to have her in my life :D
sounds wrong? but yes she is that great.
thank you for being part of my life and thank god for sending sucha asshole girl in my life :D HEEHEE
hate you BP! :)

well, my boy is on his way to my place too.
just spend some time tgt.
cuddling and watching running man! ^^
as simple as that.
and we are happy :)

well, before i go..
two more fucking papers and its party time!
LETS PARTY BABES&HUNKS! <3
fuckyeah.
xoxo.

hey there.
school is stressing everybodehhh outzzzzzzzz!

one week after another.

work pilling , assignments too and not forgetting projects!

ahhhhhhh!

and alot alot of things in life...

well, suck it up.

goodbyes.

xoxo.

as we grow older.

we realized that people dont always listen to your rants or rather you dont wanna rant anymore.

its so pointless to say certain things, make other parties unhappy and the things still remain unchanged.

i rmb when we were all young, we speak our mind , we ignore what people say.

we just want to be happy.

but as you grow older.

happy became something harder to feel.

let alone contented.

as we grow older,

we asked for more.

more time.

more happiness.

more friends.

more money.

more fun.

more clothes.

more and more things..

when we were still a kid, ice cream could just simply make our day.

nao, not even 100 of ice creams could make us smile.

as we grow older,

things seems to more complicated.

when we were young, everything seems to be as easy as ABC.

as we grow older,

we tend to be more selfish.

when we were young, we would share our toys, food with the people around us.

yet nao we keep the good things to ourselves.

as we grow older...

life gets harder.

when we were young, life is great.

sometimes i get so tired that i just break down, sleep and life still goes on.

time will not stop for you neither will people.

sometimes you've done so much for people wishing they could at least appreciate what you've done for them, yet they just took it for granted.

we dont do things just for the sake of doing it, especially to the ones close to us.

we do it because we want to do it.

nobody have to do anything for anyone unwillingly.

because you dont owe them a living neither do they owe you one.

if some people dont appreciate the things you've done for them den stop doing it.

if you placed someone first yet they treat you as their second, prioritize again.

nobody deserve to be second when you placed them first.

time to time we know what we should have done yet we let our heart climb over us.

we can say whatever we want but when it comes to action, thats the difficult part.

actions speak louder than words. action are harder than words.

this is why people use words easily to make up to the mistakes they made or rather to make someone happy.

sometimes we find it hard to let go certain things in life.

because theres many thing invest in it.

time

feelings

efforts

commitments

money

well, we know we just love saying things for the sake of saying it and not doing it.

especially girls.

they know what they should do yet the choose to hold on most of the time.

because they treasure friendship/relationship more than guys do.

guys loves to run away from it and just avoid it.

if i were to say.

girls are so much stronger than guys.

what i hated the most is when i know certain things yet i have to pretend that i dont.

or its killing me inside yet i have to pretend that everything's alright.

im just feeling tired, thats all.

xoxo